Welcome to Men on Fire, a podcast about what it means to be a man. How are you doing? We started. We started literally going to hold onto a hand. She was saying the words were  not fit.  Oh, right, right. Yeah. Yeah. So it's always all about. We have a game of rugby. That's probably a bit crazy. So. Yeah, two words. For example, 49 and I'm going to be 50 in January and I've sort of my rugby saw fizzled out and got fat and unfit and it just I just thought my work picked up and I just thought for him. Okay. But something in me when the dead. When did you like that? Six years ago. Um, and something in me was like, um, saying you still got, got it in you sort of thing. And,  um, yeah, so I've, I've obviously lost a bit of weight recently and got fitter and, um, so my daughters playing rugby and I'm talking with my coaches girls and well cups on your cup song there and yeah it's perfect storm really happened and um, yeah. And they said oh do you fancy up in the game? And I'm like, well yeah and, and I've been missing it. I really miss the, the, the mental health effect it had on my head when, when I started playing, when I was like 28. And really after the university ID start, it really had a bit of both, both a benefit for me and it really helped me with my mental health. And um, you know, I'm sure you know that as well. Rugby is really good for, for stress and stuff going on just clears your head. It just makes you lighter. And even though your body aches,  know something about. Oh yeah, oh, my body would say solid. I mean, objectively speaking. Coming back and playing rugby. Falsified. Lied. Six years.  It's ridiculous. They may already kind of covers the benefit of it. Why? Maybe that outweighs the particular physical stress. Yeah. You know, and I've been struggling a little bit with a few things recently and just saw the game of rugby clear my mind a little bit and sort and, and just just enjoy it and,  you know, so I heard it. Yeah. Like sort of threes game in, in the offing. I'm like, yeah, you better go. I thought well what's the worse it can happen over 20 minutes at the end probably. I mean I saw  this unit if you listen is a familiar with rugby now  so. So I'm just I'm 40. I haven't played since I was about 30 war and then five I had one game a few years back there is my son will come back and do 20 minutes for the back row which is not the easiest position really, but. You play front row. And so when you do a comeback game in a third team in the front row for anyone that's not quite that sort of standard.  But local won't be lost. Yeah. Yeah. It's not like. It's not, like long before you forget a ball. Yeah. Lot of big boys push it. Yeah, it's a fight in the scrum, so. Yeah. Yeah. So. Yeah. Thought I'd give it a go, and I ended up playing for the second team, so it wasn't even really a battle. It's a friendly, but no such thing. Really. Is that. Oh, no. And yeah, second team, they told me. Right. You're starting. Okay. No, um. Thought that. Yeah, that's what I mean. Like, if you play in a few, you're away or.  Uh, yeah, just other positions like you. You're coming back with my mom? Just standing there. Okay. Yeah, it definitely wasn't allowed. Lowliest ground, anyway. Lasted 60 minutes, had a couple runs, few tackles, um, lot of scrums and. Yeah. Managed 60 minutes before my neck started. Give it up then give up the ghost. But yeah, I've loved it. I was chuffed that my my my neck and not my legs, you know. That said I've still got that fit. That's so only get around the carcass now. Is it a comeback or is it a comeback? And then go show where you go. No, that's a good that's a good question. So could just like think of it as just a one off bang, you know? But there is something in me going no, nothing got all glory in your tank and so yeah mean so guess the the subject for today it's all comebacks and you know stopping something and is it worth restarting. Is it w