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Ever feel like when you 'fix' one area of you life, another part falls apart?
- 2022/07/24
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Hey, Hey, Hey Rhino Julie here, who is Rhino Julie? Well, Rhino Julie went from ridiculously broke, sad, overweight to owning a multi-location at gym business and being happy in every area of my life, except when I'm not happy in an area of my life. In which case I fix it, move on and make that area of my life happy. And I wanna teach everyone else how to do the same. Okay. This podcast episode is about whenever we feel like we fix one area of our life and then all of the, like another area of our life just falls apart and it's like, ah, how can we juggle all the things? That's what this podcast episode is about. So we're gonna start this podcast episode by starting when I was 12. Talking about that. We're gonna talk about how I started writing a fiction book, because I felt like in the book I could escape my life and live the one that I was writing instead. And I could build any life for this girl in this book. I could save her from any situation I could make her pretty. I could make her funny. I could make her super smart. I could make her whatever I wanted to make her. And I started the book with her sitting and looking out the window. She was at the lowest point in her life broke, loveless, I had quite the imagination at 12. Actually when I was 12, I was going through some stuff, the transition from 12 to 13, let's just say I ate lunch in the bathroom at school for a lot of different reasons. And we had this minister living with us and he was amazing. Okay. He was great. Anybody who gives their life for something is awesome. And he thought it would be really good for me if he took me around house to house and had me knock on the doors of all of the friends, my friends in my middle school. Well, I mean, I say friends like loosely, like I definitely, there was a group of really cool girls that I got to hang out with, but I just was not. I was going through a lot of stuff. And then talking to these girls later, like they were going through these things too, and they felt super insecure and awful too. But I liked to eat lunch in the bathroom because then nobody would take my lunch and I could read my book. Okay. So he would have me go around door to door, knock on the door and say, "Hi, my name is Julie". We're holding bible studies at our house and I was in my dress and stuff. And one time, like this girl answers the door and she was just one of the most popular girls in school that I never really talked to. And I just like froze. And he nudged me, the minister nudged me. He was 83 years old. He was, he was awesome. He nudged me, and he's like, "Say your thing." And so I would say my thing and I just remember being so, mortified. And I was living in the laundry room because the ministers were staying with us, which is fine. Mom made it, she put a little caught in there for me. It was fine. Okay. What I'm trying to say is at this time in my life, when I was trying to write this book, I was escaping my current reality. And I was always living in my imagination and I always imagined that one day I was gonna be awesome, but then in 2004, when that awesomeness was supposed to be happening in my life. Like I was an adult. Let's go . If I were to rank my life at that time, looking back, number one, being like the worst it's ever been. And then number 10, like being the best, I was miserable in almost every aspect, except the love of my family, cuz my family's awesome. And there's a lot of love there. So my significant other, I ranked that situation. Oh one. Take full responsibility for that. My social and my friends, I ranked a one. I take full responsibility for that too. There were great people in my life, but I wasn't being true to myself. I was living a very uncomfortable existence, putting up a facade and there was a lot of things underneath that facade, like just thinking that I was supposed to be a certain way, live a certain way. I'm sure you've gone through this. Like where you're just living the way you feel like you're supposed to live, and all of it is fake. Like all, like you just muster up the positivity and the smiles and you do the thing, but really on the inside, you're miserable, and you're like, "What's wrong with me? I have all of these things to be thankful for. And here I am, like just not feeling good." But it like when we're not living our truth and we're not true to who we are. It could be very miserable on the inside money. I would've ranked money. Definite one, the brokers I ever was in my life. Well actually that's not true because we were raised pretty poor. Like my parents are awesome, but they had a lot of bad luck stuff happen to them. And so, I guess I wasn't the brokes I'd ever been, but in my adult set like life, like where I was responsible for everything, I was the brokest. Physical health, I would've ranked it a one. I gained 65 pounds. Just kind of miserable there. Personal growth, I didn't know what personal growth was. I didn't know that there were cool books ...