I've noticed an increasing trend on social media, especially TikTok, where people are creating personal brands out of mental health struggles - specifically ADHD, anxiety, and mood/behavioral disorders. Visibility is really important, but this approach rubs me the wrong way. When you have ADHD as an adult, it's rarely taken seriously - in fact, it's often glamorized, made the butt of jokes, or seen as an excuse for being lazy. In truth, ADHD and anxiety has kinda screwed up my life, causing bouts of severe depression and stopping me from living up to my fullest potential. It's time to get real about what living with a 'disorder' looks like - well, at least through my mascara-ed eyes.

Starting with a brutally honest list of my day-to-symptoms, we go deep into my complicated relationship to the word "crazy"; history with learning disabilities and mood disorders in school; bottoming out at college; the various coping mechanisms I developed over the years, including drugs and alcohol and developing an outlandish, hyper-confident persona; regrets I have about my past behavior and what I hope life will look like now that I’ve entered my 30s; and why Paris Hilton has become my unlikely mental health hero.

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