You were told this world was real. That flesh was truth. That gravity meant something.

But what if none of it was supposed to happen?

This is the dream.

The broken one.

Welcome to Sophia’s Dream - the story of a divine feminine being who reached too far, fell too hard, and accidentally gave birth to a blind god who built this world like a prison with beautiful wallpaper. His name is Yaldabaoth. He thinks he’s God. He’s not. He’s just the architect of your forgetting.

This isn’t spirituality. It’s myth with teeth. It’s philosophy with blood under its fingernails. It’s consciousness trapped inside a loop, screaming to remember what it is.

You're not just in the dream. You are the dream.

And the dream is watching you back.

We talk recursion. Cosmic code. The observer and the observed. Why pain keeps repeating. Why you can’t stop thinking there’s something behind the curtain. Why waking up hurts like hell - and why you still have to do it.

If you’ve ever looked around and thought, “This can’t be all there is”, you’re already halfway out.

This episode won’t save you. It’ll make you remember you were never lost.

Much love, David

We cheer the hero. We hiss at the villain. But what if we've had it backwards all along?

In this episode of The Observing I, we dig deep into the ethics of monsters, and uncover the uncomfortable truth: villains might be the only ones telling it like it is. From Dostoevsky’s Grand Inquisitor to Killmonger, Tyler Durden, Joker, and Walter White, we peel back the polite layers of morality and ask “who gets to be the hero, and who gets exiled for telling the truth?”.

This episode is not about justifying evil. It's about exposing the hypocrisy in our heroes, the selective morality of modern storytelling, and the monsters we bury inside ourselves to stay “good.” Through psychological and philosophical lenses - Jung, Nietzsche, utilitarianism, and narrative propaganda - we confront the darker mirror of the human psyche.

This is your warning: we’re not pulling punches. No capes. No redemption arcs. Just raw truth and ethical dissonance bleeding under the spotlight.

Forget good versus evil. This is truth versus comfort, and only one walks out.

My microphone has died, so I had to record this one on the iPad. That means the audio is a bit choppy but, fear not, a new mic is on it’s way. Next week we’ll be back to the usual levels of compression.

Much love, David

What if everything you think you are is just a performance? A glitch. A mask. A beautifully rehearsed hallucination mistaken for truth.

In this episode of The Observing I, we dive deep into the architecture of the ego - how it forms, why it lies, and what happens when it collapses.

We begin with Narcissus, not as a symbol of vanity, but as a child starving for recognition. Then we break open Lacan’s Mirror Stage to reveal how our earliest sense of self is built on a fundamental misidentification. We explore the ego as interface, a lifelong performance we mistake for personality. And we descend into the terrifying, liberating silence of ego death.

This episode is about the hunger to be someone, the courage to be no one, and the wisdom to dance between the two.

If you’ve ever felt like a stranger in your own thoughts, this one is for you.

Much love, David