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  • Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 8- I Am Not Your Secret.

    Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 8- I Am Not Your Secret.
    2025/07/10
    Welcome back to the Phoenix of the Northeast podcast — a memoir in motion, a sanctuary of truth, and a space where no part of us is hidden anymore.

    Today, we arrive at Chapter 8 — I Am Not Your Secret.

    This chapter is a door slammed shut.


    A mirror turned inward.


    A moment where I stopped accepting half-love, half-truths, and half-presence.


    Because let me say it plain:

    I am not something to be tucked away in shadows.

    Not your afterthought.

    Not your guilt trip.

    Not your shame to carry behind closed doors.


    I am not the woman you call at midnight but deny in daylight.

    I am not your experiment in secrecy, in silence, in survival.


    This chapter is for every woman who's ever been hidden, erased, romanticized in private but erased in public.


    For every time you were made to feel like your love, your body, your fire was too complicated to claim out loud.


    This is the moment I spit that shame back out — and say:

    I deserve to be chosen in the sunlight.

    I deserve to be spoken about with pride — not whispered like a sin.

    I am not your secret.

    I am someone you never had the right to hide.




    This chapter might feel like a gut punch.

    But it’s also a liberation.

    A declaration.

    A homecoming to self.


    Because when I stopped begging to be seen — I realized: I was always whole.

    It was they who were never ready for my light.


    And I will never again be small to soothe someone else’s shame.


    This is Chapter 8 of my memoir — and the beginning of every woman remembering:


    You were never meant to be anyone’s secret.

    You are the story, the headline, the whole damn truth.


    Let’s begin.
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    12 分
  • Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 7- Becoming Fire, Not Fuel

    Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 7- Becoming Fire, Not Fuel
    2025/07/10
    Welcome back to the “Phoenix of the Northeast” podcast, where survival isn’t the end of the story — it’s the beginning of sovereignty.

    This is Chapter 7: Becoming Fire, Not Fuel.

    This is the part where I stopped trying to be digestible. Where I stopped letting other people throw their matches at me — hoping I’d burn for their warmth.


    You see, for so long, I was taught to be the fuel.


    To bend, to accommodate, to set myself on fire just to keep the room from going cold.


    But this chapter? This is where I re-wrote the rule.


    Because I wasn’t born to be consumed — I was born to ignite.


    Becoming fire, not fuel means saying no even when your voice trembles.


    It means walking away from people who only love the ashes of who you used to be.


    It means choosing sacred rage over silent suffering.


    In this chapter, I speak about the moment I looked at the girl in the mirror — bruised by expectation, burned by betrayal — and said:


    "You don’t belong to them anymore. You belong to the flame you carry."


    And when I stopped begging for permission to burn, I became my own torch.


    This isn’t just a chapter.


    It’s a boundary. A blaze. A prayer.


    A declaration that I will no longer be kind to what kills me.


    From here on, I don’t explain my fire.


    I embody it.


    Let them misunderstand.


    Let them call it anger when it’s really alchemy.


    Because this is my rise — and I am the firestarter now.


    If you’ve ever felt like your light was too much — or not enough — this chapter is for you.


    Not everyone is meant to stand beside your flame.


    But those who do? They’ll never ask you to dim it.


    Thank you for walking with me through the fire.


    This was Chapter 7: Becoming Fire, Not Fuel.
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    11 分
  • Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Author Bio Pt 2

    Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Author Bio Pt 2
    2025/07/05
    Hi, I’m Stella Bordoloi—originally from the lush, culture-rich city of Guwahati in Assam, North East India, and born in Shillong, Meghalaya. Now based in sunny North Queensland, Australia. My journey is rooted in healing, truth-telling, and reclaiming power through lived experience.

    Outside of work, I’m a big believer in rest, beauty, and self-expression. I love curating cozy spaces with candles and soft lighting, writing reflective journal entries, and dancing—something I’ve done since childhood as a trained Indian classical dancer. I find peace in hiking, exploring cultures, and indulging in creative side hustles like personal styling and organizing soulful gatherings with friends. I’m also a lover of trauma-informed movement practices like yoga and Pilates, which have become part of my healing.

    This podcast is an extension of everything I love: honest conversations, emotional depth, and making space for stories that often go unheard. Welcome to my world—where softness meets strength, and survival becomes sacred storytelling.
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    15 分
  • Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Author Bio Pt 1

    Phoenix of the Northeast- A Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Author Bio Pt 1
    2025/07/05
    Stella Bordoloi is a storyteller, survivor, and soul-led creative originally from Northeast India and now based in North Queensland, Australia. With a background in social work and a voice shaped by resilience, Stella uses storytelling to bridge personal healing with collective empowerment. Her work speaks to those who’ve lived through silence, survived emotional storms, and are now rising—fierce, honest, and sovereign.

    In this podcast episode, she shares a glimpse of who she is at her core, and as a person.
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    14 分
  • Phoenix of the Northeast: The Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 6- The Ghosts I No Longer Carry

    Phoenix of the Northeast: The Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 6- The Ghosts I No Longer Carry
    2025/07/01
    Welcome to Phoenix of the Northeast, a memoir podcast by Stella Bordoloi — a story of reclamation, resilience, and rising from the ashes.

    In today’s chapter, titled “The Ghosts I No Longer Carry,” we enter the quiet after the storm — the sacred space where healing begins not by forgetting, but by finally putting down what was never ours to hold.

    These are the ghosts of childhood, of shame, of generational silence. The ones that haunted my sleep, shaped my walk, and whispered untruths into my mirror. But today, this chapter is not about them. It’s about freedom. It’s about the moment I looked in the rearview mirror and chose not to take them with me.

    If you've ever been burdened by invisible weight… this chapter is for you. Let’s exhale together — and release what no longer belongs in our story.

    Now, take a breath.
    And come with me…
    into “The Ghosts I No Longer Carry.”
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    10 分
  • Phoenix of the Northeast- The Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 5- They Called It Love, I Called It Survival.

    Phoenix of the Northeast- The Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 5- They Called It Love, I Called It Survival.
    2025/06/29
    What happens when the love you were given came wrapped in fear, silence, and shame?
    In this searing chapter, Stella Bordoloi unpacks the blurred lines between love and survival in families where obedience is mistaken for care, and endurance is mistaken for loyalty.

    This is not a story of heartbreak—this is a story of awakening.
    Of realizing that what was labeled love was often just control.
    That what passed as protection was sometimes fear.
    And that choosing to leave was not betrayal, but a sacred act of self-rescue.

    This chapter is for the daughters who grew up parenting their parents.
    For the sons who were only ever safe when they were silent.
    For the ones who learned to read moods like weather forecasts, and called that "connection."
    It’s for everyone who had to teach themselves the difference between love and survival.

    Raw, lyrical, and unapologetically honest—this is not just a chapter. It’s a truth spoken out loud, after generations of being swallowed.
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    9 分
  • Phoenix of the Northeast: The Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter-4

    Phoenix of the Northeast: The Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter-4
    2025/06/25
    In this raw and unfiltered chapter, I revisit the rooms that raised me — not in comfort, but in quiet chaos. This episode explores how love can be conditional, how silence can be violent, and how a child learns to survive in a space that never felt safe. A home is meant to be a sanctuary, but what happens when it's the very place you learn fear?
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    7 分
  • Phoenix of the Northeast- Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 3: Alchemy of the Abandoned

    Phoenix of the Northeast- Stella Bordoloi Memoir, Chapter 3: Alchemy of the Abandoned
    2025/06/24
    "Alchemy of the Abandoned" — where discarded pieces of the past are transmuted into sacred power. This is the art of turning pain into gold, and loneliness into liberation. ✨🖤🔥 #PhoenixAlchemy #SacredTransformation #AbandonedNoMore
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    8 分